Wednesday, July 13, 2005

Caught in the space between waking and dreaming, a heart full of fear and a head full of scheming - When the lights went out

I am here - over a week later. Fighting with my addiction and so afraid of who I will be without it because is has become a part of who I am . Somedays I win, other's I lose. I was reminded last night that things don't and won't always happen in MY time. There is so much I am powerless over. This battle has not ended . I cry every day and don't think I'll stop until I finally win. At this point, I don't think I could stop if I wanted to.

3 Comments:

Blogger Jaws said...

I dunno what to say but I wanna give ya a HUG.

Your post made me think of Steel cowboys post today. http://steelcowboy.blogspot.com/
We are all works in progress.

8:19 AM  
Blogger Jen said...

Thinking of you.

1:20 PM  
Blogger Spyder said...

It's funny how things work out. I was a smoker who never saw myself quitting. Looking back now I cannot even fathom the thought that I used to!

12:18 PM  

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