Sink like a stone, float like a feather - Unbroken Chain
To my left a euphoric friend celebrating one year of sobriety. My right, after 8 years, another suffers the pain of going back out. I cry tears of joy and fear together. The conflict paralyzes me. Can't feel both so strongly at the same moment yet can't sort them. Back and forth, I fail over and over. All I can really do is save myself. And at this moment, I have no idea how.